Wednesday, December 31, 2008

tragedy strikes the bluebird


o sad day... i realized that it was windy, but i didn't think that it was enough to snap my aluminum clothes line at the base. unequally weighted, it was no match for the gale going on outside. it crashed hard and seems to be irreconcilably fubar. (a military term i learned as a child from ken hardy. it means "f-d up beyond all relief.) and so i am here with two loads of wet laundry, no line, and a serious dearth of quarters. sigh.
so, instead of going to the washateria, i think that i will go pick up the cool old cabinet i just scored off of freecycle and go skating. i'll figure out how to dry my clothing later. preferably before anyone needs a shower, as all the towels are damp.
lovepeace
h

yesterday



i was very proud of myself! the bathroom got some much needed attention. i took apart the dripping faucet in the tub and reseated all of the springs with new gaskets, put in a new ball and some other bit that keeps water from spraying everywhere when you turn it on. and now, no drip. yay! i also changed out the defective light switch without killing myself even once! AND it turns on and off as it is supposed to!and then to top it off, i oiled the hinges on the door. for those of you who have visited, you know that access to the bathroom is through my bedroom. (yes, a minor flaw that will be amended when the children leave home and don't have to use that bathroom at 4 am anymore.) but for now, at least it is quiet...-er.
and all was well in my world until i went outside to hang my laundry this morning...

Saturday, December 27, 2008

home at last

though it feels sooo good to sit in my own chair at my own desk in my little tiny house in my favorite town... i sure do miss mom and dad. andgabeandlesandanatobinandedisonand
eliandmarieandkikiandjojoandnickyandsonyaandeddieandchantalandfrancisANDemmy.and harisandevanandrockyandjessie, too. and grandma. and annie. sigh. if home is where the heart is, i must have two hearts.
h.

Monday, December 15, 2008

mr. bush (nearly) got sole...

if you managed to miss the news for the last few days, a top story was that of an iraqi journalist who threw his shoes at the head of the head of our government during a press conference. response from iraq is notably positive.
this from the NYtimes:
(Kirkuk)“Muntader’s action is the top of heroism,” said Farhan Khalaf, a teacher. “He represents all Iraqis’ tragedies and sadness, but he has not become a suicide bomber, nor planted an I.E.D., nor beheaded anyone. He practiced the democracy which brought by the American. He has to be released at once. He is in all people’s hearts in Iraq and in the whole world. I am sure that he will supported by the Democrats in America.”
this from me:
progress in iraq
how wonderful to have such tremendous symbolism in what is not a truly dangerous act. no bloodshed, no inflammatory posters, no marches with overturned cars and automatic gunfire... just a guy throwing his florsheims. that is democracy in action. o... wait. they put him in prison... and probably tortured him. hmmm. well.... we'll have to get back to you on that one. but at least the iraqis are making progress, even if the american led security forces are still a little draconian.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

the cutest things

toddlers are mighty cute, but i think that teenagers are pretty adorable, too. guthrie is in his room singing and playing his guitar and sadie is dragging the dog out of the compost bin. she was swearing at origami instructions earlier. those darned kids are so precious. i sure do love 'em.
h.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

nothing but knit...

that is exactly what i intend to do today. aside from going to the farmer's market. and grocery shopping. and having my doorway fixed. and making a cake. and maybe taking the dogs for a hike.
we'll see. knit three, purl two... knit three, purl two... knit three, purl two...

Friday, December 12, 2008

morning

i am sad today. perhaps i am just tired. at eight this morning, i was in my neighbors david and emily's back yard discussing a potential sewer line with a city right of way inspector. it is a proposed forty foot swath of destruction to pass directly behind my house (through my deck, as i see it), tearing out all the trees and maintaining a 20 foot permanent easement through the middle of my property. i also discovered that i don't own the garden patch next to my home. what else? o, that all of that "community land trust" area behind the cemetery was a lie fabricated by the agent selling the house. there are owned but undeveloped lots back there, lacking only an access road to begin construction. is 20 feet permanent easement wide enough for an access road? next to my bedroom? i am not sure if i want to scream or weep. even if they put the line where the existing one lies, they will tear down two or more hundred year old tulip poplars, destroy the creek, and rip out a great deal of the little woods that i so love. it makes me wish i had bought out beyond the vagueries of in-town easements and growing sewage capacity. if losing everything i love about my home is the price i pay for living within biking distance of everything, i think that i am paying too much.
happy holidays.
h.

Monday, December 8, 2008

odetofishes


a good firing... whew! after my last misadventure opening the kiln, i was more than a little paranoid. there are still a few things that i need to work on with that kiln, but i think that i am getting a handle on it. fish are my few favorite motif, along with bamboo leaves. they are both simple and graceful, and the fish are an endless source of subtle amusement for me. one fish will go the wrong way. one will have a different pattern on its back. another will wink or make kissy face. but only one little thing per piece. and then some have just fish. they remind me of living on the boat and the endless hours of meditation spent staring at millions of darting fry in the shadow of the hull. they remind me of long boat key and summers splashing in the shallows with younger siblings and eventually my own children. they remind me of sadie fishing from the dock with a chopstick, thread, and a bent pin. she caught more fish with cheddar than anyone i know does with shrimp! i suppose it is no wonder that i like them so much. they have faithfully eaten the crusts of peanut butter sandwiches of several generations, dodged the sinking pottery of my first year's classes, amused my toddlers for hours, and fascinated me since i first tried to catch one in my hands. all hail the noble fish!
now... off to work!
h.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

sheshome


after a five month vacation at the piano emporium and spa, our musical baby is finally home. she sounds and plays like a dream. shane owenby is on my sweetheart list for life. sadie will be out of her mind with joy. guthrie will be spending more time playing outside.
happy day!
lovepeace
heather

Sunday, November 23, 2008

localtools



(above: my wagener trim tool and the first pot i trimmed with it.)
being in a studio with matt and josh and their constant odes to local clays and materials inspires me and occasionally riddles me with guilt. it is simply easier and more time effective for me to buy my clay pre-bagged. besides. i really like my clay without quartz rocks, garnets, rubies, and old nails in it. (what they do with it is divine, though.) but, today i took a step closer to local clay. my friend alwin is a blacksmith in the Wedge building where i work, and today he gave me a new trimming tool! it looks rugged and lovely, fits nicely in my hand, and trims well... and is made more locally than even my favorite beer! (which is at the whole other end of the building!) so, my foot is on the step. matt has promised me a bunch of local clay to wedge up with mine. we shall see. i might yet have to bow to the vagueries of the local material. and it all starts with a trim tool.
lovepeace

cccccold

it is... ummm... RAH-ther chilly in here today. i still haven't had the woodstove installed. (no surprise to those who know me well. procrastination is actually my middle name. nicole is just a ruse.) the direct result is, of course, that it is COLD in here. i must say that the advantage of having a postage stamp house is that boiling a full kettle will warm the kitchen at least as long as it takes to drink a cup of tea. and the oven! o nectar! o ambrosia! o warm muffins! (well, until the puppies ate my silicone muffin tins.)today it is apple cranberry cornbread. here is a recipe (with vegan alt.) if you leave out the cranberries and apples and sorghum, this is my best cornbread recipe. mom will add sugar, but guthrie likes it best like that.
apple cranberry cornbread
preheat the oven and cast iron pan to 400 degrees
3/4 cup cornmeal
1 c whole wheat pastry flour
2 Tbs - 1/4 cup of oil or melted butter
1 egg (or 1 1/2 tsp. egg replacer and 2 Tbs water)
1 c buttermilk (or 1 c. clabbered soymilk*)( or if you want to be creative, half the liquid measure of orange juice)
1/4 cup sorghum, unsulphured molasses, or honey (or sugar)
1 tsp salt
1 TBS baking powder
1 c chopped apples (with crust on! that's where all the vitamins are!)
1 c (more or less) cranberries (chopped roughly, if you like)
combine the wet ingredients. add the salt and baking powder . it will foam up. add the meal and flour. stir gently but well. fold in fruit. bake in cast iron, an 8x8 pan, or
a loaf pan. bake 25 min. eat hot!

*how to clabber milk/soymilk: add 1 tsp vinegar to 1 cup of milk. stir once. let sit while you aggregate your ingredients.
eat with butter or earth balance, slathered with sorghum or honey. mmmm.
enjoy!
lovepeace
heather

Monday, November 17, 2008

knitten


this is me in the cute little hat i knitted for lori of crazy green studios. it is only a year overdue. she asked for purple. the crazy green stripe was my own addition. yippee!!!
more news as it happens.
lovepeace
heather

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

justincase

sometimes i do the dumbest things. and sometimes i do them without even knowing i do them. the blog, for instance. there is no knowing what i will write about. it is seldom the most important thing in my life, or even in my day. it is just whatever strikes. kind of like a notebook for writing down random things that might make good titles for novels some day. and sometimes i whine about things that i don't even realize i am whining about. things that i like. enjoy. love. why? i don't know. so let me put in words a few of the most important things that have happened in the last month.
1. my mommy came up for a visit. she surprised sadie for her birthday. it was a rare delight to have her here. i tried to be sneaky about not posting that she was coming and then didn't post that she had been. that was a stupid oversight. it was a busy time, but those few days with mom were ambrosia for my embattled soul. and sadie enjoyed it, too! (so did guber, though he was relatively invisible.) my mom really is the very best. i was so so so so glad she came and made an oasis in my craziness.
2. michael broke up with me. it did not feel good. i respect his decision, and we are still close. i don't really want to talk about it.
3. clayspace co-op, where i make my ceramic work, was on the cover of the mountain express last week. it was a big deal and very very cool. the article brought lots of people to the river district's studio stroll. we were momentarily famous. okay, so some of us are already famous, but not me. so i had a few days of people recognizing me from the front of the paper. that was fun. joe sam queen, our illustrious state senator (just reelected), bought the teapot that was featured in the article. i suppose now i am a member of the permanent collection. neat!

there is far more that i have not written down, like the fact that (due to naked trees) i can now see from my bedroom the civil war graveyard up the hill from my house. and that matt gave me a sweet felted hat that keeps my ears very warm. and that my winter project is to learn entrelac knitting. so many things that i skip right over in favor of catchy bumper stickers and pictures of laundry. but they are in my mind. and in my heart. trust me.
lovepeace
heather

Thursday, November 6, 2008

electionontheline



lovepeace
heather

whyilovehomeschooling

guthrie, my 15 year old, is homeschooling. among other lessons he is required to read one article from the scientific american and one from the new york times (online) every day. he emails me a synopsis including several key points. this was his report on the sciam today. i would like to have included his reports from the ny times, but they needed a little editing for profanity. apparently he's been tutoring with the shade of george carlin... and possibly lennie bruce.
Force Fields for Mars Exploration?
European researchers have developed a magnetic force field that hopefully will allow astronauts to explore dangerous Martian territory. Scientists in England tested the field by firing charged particles (stand in for energetic solar particles) at it at mach 3. What they saw was almost a complete reflection of the particles. So now we know that those commie Martians' laser guns won’t phase our astronauts. Then we can have Saturtians occupy Mars and suppress communism, then we can use a puppet dictator and run Mars from behind the curtain.

i am so proud.
lovepeace
heather

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

yeswecan

this is heather tinnaro, of the teeny tiny blog future 26 calling the great state of NC and the presidency of the United States of America for Barack Obama. i don't have the words to express my intense joy at watching his acceptance speech. my eyes welled up, and my heart beat fast in my chest. (as opposed to my left kneecap...) i have hope again. i know that, in the immortal words of the late molly ivins, "you got to dance with those what brung ya," but i believe that our president elect will remember that it was WE THE PEOPLE who brung him, after all.
good night, and god bless.

and THANK YOU for voting.


note: mr. mccain's speech was also gracious and conciliatory. i respect that.

Monday, November 3, 2008

today

today i fired the soda kiln at odyssey. it was completely full of my very own work. i could scarcely be more excited. all of my ware for studio stroll is in there! i haven't fired a kiln entirely for myself since st. petersburg! and almost as exciting as that was the prospect of sitting in peace, knitting, reading, and listening to john adams in audiobook; all...day...long.
i finished livea's baby hat by 11 am and started on lori's chullo (killer wooly hat with ear flaps.)i knit the first two inches of that hat and unravelled it 8 times. EIGHT! it was my own fault, though. i chose an unvetted pattern off of the internet. apparently, it doesn't work with knitting patterns any better than it does with vice presidential candidates. i seriously hope that this pattern doesn't come back to haunt me in 2012.


shoo! get back over there!


now... go vote.
no really... now.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

therevolutionwillnotbetelevised

last night, as halloween raged outside, michael and i sat at my desk and watched the documentary "the revolution will not be televised" at freedocumentary.com. it is a well done piece filmed from the inside of the coup that briefly deposed venezuelan president, hugo chavez. i watched it several years ago with my sister marie, and i remember watching the papers like a hawk while it was all happening. still, it was heartening (and nerve wracking) to watch the venezuelan people reclaim their constitutional government and beloved president within days of losing both in an elitist, media-manipulated, american-backed coup d'etat.
several things amazed me. one: one of the first things chavez did as president was to encourage every venezuelan to learn to read and then to read their constitution. he calls it, "the people's book." how many of us have read OUR "people's book?" two: how the people responded immediately and in tremendous number when he was abducted. the barrios were empty, and it was all "organized" by word of mouth, as the news stations were all broadcasting propaganda insisting that chavez had resigned and left of his own accord. three: how anyone could accuse hugo chavez of suppressing opposition media when it was a free (and opposition owned) media that orchestrated the coup in the first place. four: (and finally) how millions of (mostly) unarmed poor people managed to retake their democratically elected government after it was stolen by powers better armed, better funded, and backed by the largest hegemonistic government in the world.
as the film drew to a close, i wondered about our own stolen elections, and wondered what it would take to draw "we the people" into the streets on our own behalf. is this the year, with more than a few military leaders in our corner, an unprecedentedly popular candidate, and a still-lingering stench of vote rigging in the air, that we mobilize? what will we do if this election is stolen from us? chalk it up to the bradley effect, shake our heads at "those closet racists," and hunker down for the end of the world?
to quote (or paraphrase) Tennessee Williams (and my mother and uncle michael,)
what shall we do for the rest of our lives?
sit here and watch the parades go by, play with the glass menagerie, and forever listen to those worn-out records that your father left as a painful reminder of him?
O, NO! NOT ME!

now, get out there and vote.
and if that fails, put on your shoes and get ready to march!
lovepeace
h.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

bestoftheday

this morning's bumper sticker sighting was the best yet.
I LIKE MY COFFEE LIKE I LIKE MY PRESIDENTS, BLACK!
my response was, "me, too!"

and on the weather, it snowed today. as this is only my third fall here, it is unremarkable that i have never seen snow before halloween, but i have heard that it is unusual. it's cold, too.

Monday, October 27, 2008

fall

fall has arrived in style, dropping walnuts and iron-stained leaves, flinging branches in the wringing winds that sweep through my little woods. as much as i love it, it breeds in me a deep melancholy. it is a dying and a sleeping that saddens me, making me miss those whom i have lost and those who are far away. i dreamed last night of spring, of laying in the sun on pale green grass with my sisters and daughter and friends. pale paper butterflies fluttered in the breeze and landed on my face. i blew them away with laughter. i woke to find my trees more bare, and my smile a little sadder. but i will recover. a few hours spent in company of trees, nodding into their annual nap, will wake in me the ganas to laugh through winter.
lovelovelovepeace
heather

o, and i voted! have you?

Monday, October 20, 2008

dinnertiming

i am in the throes of listening to "in defense of food," by michael pollan in such snippets as i may snatch while tootling about town in the auto. that is to say: a mouthful at a time. the content is excellent, even if the reader sounds a little too like someone trying to sell me something. today he compared the time taken to prepare, eat, and wash up after the average american meal over the last several decades. it apparently only takes most families less than twenty minutes to make dinner, less than an hour to consume it, and less than twenty minutes to clean up. i am not certain if i am living in the wrong country or participating in the wrong polls. tonight it took approximately an hour to make dinner. we had corn bread, black eyed peas, and turnips and radishes braised in olive oil and butter and then steamed with their greens. with hot sauce. the only thing not from scratch was the hot sauce. though it is my favorite meal, it only took me as long to eat as it took me to read an article about groucho marx on the NPR website.(about 8 minutes.) and as a teenager will be doing the dishes, if they get cleaned in under two days it will be a bona fide miracle. and as it is time for me to urge on said miracle, i must go get the bullwhip out.
godspeed.
don't forget to vote.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

goodgrief

Men have done plenty to mess up the country, he said. “The sexual drives and big egos of male leaders have gotten in the way of politics in this country.” Mr. Hawkins said he talked to fellow truckers, and a lot of them feel the same way. “They think it’s time for a woman, too,” he said. “This one. Palin is our kind of woman.” New York Times 10/18/08
the preceding quote is from this evening's times in an article about the affection of "joe sixpack" for his girl sarah. it felt odd to read words that have dropped from my own lips being repeated by a palin-loving trucker. it took a woman with big hair and a small vocabulary to convince the conservative, blue-collar male that "a chick" could run this country. we have officially gone from electing a man "you'd want to have a beer with" to attempting to elect a woman you'd like to have... well... anyway... i don't think that this is progress.
don't forget to vote.
please.

Friday, October 17, 2008

kilnside

(i wrote this in the kiln yard last friday while firing the soda kiln for my class. it has been riding in my notebook since.)
it is my favorite season again. i can think of nothing negative about fall. harvest is here, bringing in all my favorite starches; potatoes, sweet potatoes, winter squashes of all varieties. it is cool enough to grow tender greens. fennel, kale, and even the dreaded rainbow chard decorate every stall at the market. radishes of every hue look like unseasonably early christmas baubles. all of the colors of fall delight, not just the edible ones. sassafrass and tulip poplar are turning gold, while sourleaf, poison ivy, maple and dogwood ignite in red and purple. bluejays never looked better than in such a setting.
i am firing at odyssey today. it is the second firing for my class. sarah made me do it. she has an opportunity to be in ceramics monthly if she gets a photo made in time. good for her! i would have made me, too! the advantage is that i made so much stuff that i nearly have enough to fire again. all i have to do is made a few tea sets, but i can do that in a week. even with a weekend guest, birthday girl, homeschool, puppies, fixing plumbing and studio duties... sometimes my optimism astounds even me.
and it could not be a pre-election blog post without some political something or other. first, i saw the man himself! OBAMA in asheville! granted, i was one of 20,000 people, but i was still in the presence of greatness. however, while i was out in Bandana, NC (east of the sun, west of the moon, and across the great ocean at the end of the world) firing with Naomi Dalglish and Michael Hunt (who are, incidentally, really wonderful people) MELISSA AND MATT MET OBAMA AND GAVE HIM POTTERY! apparently, not having a date with the david letterman show, mr. obama stayed in asheville overnight to rest up and eat the best barbecue NC has to offer. which is, of course, at 12 bones(or so i am told... being a vegetarian and all.) and is right around the corner from my studio. i hear he is very tall...and extremely gracious. i am unsurprised, and more than a little jealous.
lovepeace
heather

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

round1


see sunday aug.31st...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

basiceconomics

do you remember your high school economics class? no, the one where you made brownies and a stuffed bunny was home economics. the other one, where they made you make a budget and learn to write checks. it seems as though our elected representatives have forgotten this class, even if they have remembered how to write checks... really...big...checks. there is a basic, and i mean BASIC, tenet of economics that can bail us out of the current "crisis." when you have a recession, put money into the middle class and the poor. it really is beyond simple. the middle class and the poor spend money. they buy stuff because they don't already have everything that they need. they pay off debt (mortgages! credit! hello!). they buy products/ services that create jobs. all of which puts money back into the economy. do you want to fix the shakeup in our economy without succumbing to the national shakedown proposed? call up your elected representative and suggest that they give all of this suddenly available flow to the taxpayers. if we guess that there are 200 million people over 18 in this country, we could each reap 3,500 dollars from a 700 billion dollar bailout. if we restrict it to the middle and poorer classes (those of us earning less than 250 thousand a year), it would be even higher. i am all for it! let those who suffer the most when the economy is troubled rebuild the economy from the bottom up. reaganomics is a sham that has cost us our shirts. start dialing, folks.

by the people, of the people, for the people... don't forget to vote.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

wherespalin

here is a new game... where's palin? as one who peruses the news every day looking for items of political interest, i find it interesting that sarah palin has recently become invisible. after a few weeks of photo-ops and one (ONE) seriously edited interview, she has dropped off the radar. a side note in today's NY Times tells us why. the press, CNN included apparently, are so sick of only being allowed the most superficial of access to palin that they have pulled their coverage. (i confess. i did not check in with fox news or limbaugh. i am sure that they are still running full coverage of every bat of her beaded lashes. ) very little in this campaign has made me laugh out loud, but the thought that the mccain campaign has so committed themselves to this political pig in a poke (ooo, there's that pig reference again!) that they are going to have to spend the rest of the campaign hiding her from the press while simultaneously convincing the american public that she is "ready on day one" tickled the daylights out of me! considering mr. mccain's unsteady health, it is entirely possible that a palin vice-presidency could become a palin presidency. and they can't even let her do an unscripted interview! okay, so maybe that should have scared the daylights out of me... but i refuse to believe that my fellow americans are stupid or racist enough to elect a man who believes that "the fundamentals of our economy are strong," or a woman who can't be trusted with the national press corps!
call me naive.
just don't forget to vote.

Monday, September 15, 2008

toolate

dang. i wish i had the power to edit everything i have ever said in public. especially if i had said it on national tv! sarah palin does. if you go to the abc website to watch the sarah palin interview with charlie gibson, you can no longer see the potential veep-er tell charlie gibson that she is "ready from day one" on foreign policy because "you can see russia from parts of alaska. it's right over there, charlie." and saddest of all, she no longer has to worry about not knowing what "the bush doctrine" is. we don't even get to hear her call mr. gibson "charlie" twice in every sentence. so... anyone still in a knot over a so-called "liberal media" can rest their collective sphincters. the interview has been white-washed. she still looks like a vapid twit, but the really good parts have been removed. the bits about holy war, and other little foibles that would illustrate what a dangerous nut we are being offered.
i must say that i am disappointed. the last thing we as a country need to do politically is buy a pig in a poke. even if she is wearing lipstick.
and yes. i did just call sarah palin a pig. obama didn't.
update: conservatives are squealing across the board that the interview was edited to make her look stupid by excerpting parts that make her look like she has a grip. maybe we'll get to see the whole interview and can make up our minds.

Friday, September 12, 2008

brief

MASSIVE OUTRAGE...
in a back page story in the NY Times today, i learned that there is a bill in the senate offering the republicans, i mean the oil companies, an offshore drilling package. it would allow drilling 50 miles off shore in states that embrace it, and 100 miles off the coast of ANY state in the US. excuse me for a moment... WHAT? oil companies and republicans are insisting that it is just an election year token. democrats are surrendering what is a MASSIVE issue for a great deal of their base... how the hell will that help them in the election? first "clean coal" and now off shore drilling. why would we do this when we know that there will be no benefits for a decade? rrr. i am mad as hell and i'm not going to take it any more.
repeat with me:
what do we want?
renewable energy
when do we want it?
NOW!
lovepeace
heather

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

calltoaction

dear nation,
it occurs to me that we need a champion in our media. we need a high-profile, notably non-partisan anchor-type who will take it upon him/herself to keep track of the daily BS of the campaign trail. we need a tough, intelligent person with the juevos to publicly call out both candidates and say, "there IS NO clean coal. despite the fact that they hugely subsidized the DNC and RNC, you simply have to admit that coal is destructive and filthy." or to step up to john mccain and tell him that palin was only "command in chief" of the alaska national guard while they were actually in the state, and that they were the smallest brigade in the nation. and that alaska's proximity to russia does not give her "foreign policy" experience. hmmm. we need someone who will compare tax programs, social programs, and energy policies. i confess, i long for such a brave soul not because i fear that bad ol' barack will tar and feather poor oooooooold mr. mccain, but because the republican smear machine is so good at the politics of divisiveness and flat out lying. and i DO want the obama-biden ticket slapped when they make mistakes or LIE. we need honest leaders with transparent funding sources. let the closed door remain the legacy of the bush administration. to that end, please brainstorm with me over who would make a decent defender of the nation. as good as they are, stewart and colbert are seldom taken seriously. i had hopes of lehrer, but as he is moderating the debates, i doubt he'd take the job. think with me, friends, and let us together appoint a champion of Truth, Justice, and the American Way. (where is clark kent when you need him?!?)
lovepeace
heather

Monday, September 8, 2008

palinausea

it did not take me long to figure out why sara palin makes my skin creep. it doesn't have anything to do with the fact that she looks like skipper barbie. i even made an outline to make sure that i wasn't just having a knee-jerk reaction in election time.
these are some of the points that seemed most pertinent. first... i have the same issue with her that i have with so many "pro-lifers," which is: now that you have a new life, who is going to be responsible for it for its entire life? why is life more important before birth than when you are, say...19 and in the national guard? or afghani? or iraqi? or 48 and on death row? or on the other end of one of those guns that she likes so much? what about a little infrastructure for the little bundle of joy? her party has gutted the education department and nearly every department in the child welfare administration. hmmm. (do you know why you have never seen a t-shirt saying, "pro-life and pro-gun?" because it would explode from sheer hypocricy. ) if you look at her own family, there seems to be a little bit of a disconnect from i think of as "family values." good on her for keeping the most recent baby. that said, down's syndrome babies take a hell of a lot of resources to raise. they need a stable, loving, attentive environment to thrive. studies show that breast-feeding positively affects the development of a new-born baby's brain. i can only imagine that it is even more crucial in a special needs child. three days is not enough. and where is trig palin now, while mama canvasses the country? no, i would never dream of suggesting that a father cannot be a primary care-giver. i am privileged to know several. but none of them have off-site jobs, 5 kids, or a special needs infant. how can someone run on a family values ticket when their family has no primary care giver?
and what in the name of heaven was palin thinking when she OUTED her pregnant 17 year old? yes, teen pregnancies happen; especially in areas where "abstinence only" health education is the standard. yes, "abstinence only" works great as birth control. it's keeping teens from screwing that is the problem. as for their decision to keep the baby, again, good on them. but... it is a private matter. her mother should have had the common decency to turn down mccain's offer to spare her child international scrutiny. and what is worse, MARRIAGE?! what? she is 17! they are handing their daughter off into a teen marriage and motherhood?! and people are lauding this as noble? WHAT? what is wrong with a party that elevates teen-aged marriage and excoriates consenting adults of the same sex who want a legal life-time commitment?
sigh. it is going to be a long few months. listening to this woman and her presidential candidate cast the obama-biden ticket as elitist and against the common citizen while slurping at the corporate/ defense industry trough and violating the very family values they laud is going to be difficult. but i will. and i will vote.
and so must you.
read. listen. think. and vote.

Monday, September 1, 2008

louisiana1927



What has happened down here is the winds have changed
Clouds rolled in from the north and it started to rain
Rained real hard and rained for a real long time
Six feet of water in the streets of Evangeline

The river rose all day
The river rose all night
Some people got lost in the flood
Some people got away all right
The river have busted through clear down to Plaquemines
Six feet of water in the streets of Evangeline

CHORUS
Louisiana, Louisiana
They're tryin' to wash us away
They're tryin' to wash us away
Louisiana, Louisiana
They're tryin' to wash us away
They're tryin' to wash us away

President Coolidge came down in a railroad train
With a little fat man with a note-pad in his hand
The President say, "Little fat man, isn't it a shame what the river has
done
To this poor crackers land."

Randy Newman "Louisiana 1927"
photo credit: Tyler Hicks, NY Times

Sunday, August 31, 2008

evolution

this, i suppose, is what friends are for. yesterday, at the wonderful funeral march for my friend john payne, i got the chance to talk to a friend that i have not spent much time with for some months. in telling him about the new things i am thinking and doing in ceramics, i mentioned "this machine kills fascists." he laughed at me... and called me pro-capitalist. continuing to laugh, he said that he was surprised at me, wanting to kill anyone..." sooo violent!" he mocked me. i choked. sputtering, i was unable to defend myself. it might have had something to do with the fact that there were several other friends present, i had an armful of four-year-old, and we were about to start a march across the haywood street bridge. sigh. i have just never been glib under pressure. it speaks well of my sincerity, but not so much for my intellect. at any rate, the thought that this provoked has fermented and bourne the following.
i love words. i always have. they are for me the first blush of creativity. new forms are created in my mouth before they are drawn on the page. if i can't describe it to myself, i can't do it. but, even more than their effect on my internal processes, i am fascinated by the effect that they have on the masses. any masses. all masses. think barack obama. kennedy. MLK. hitler. woody guthrie. all of their words moved tremendous numbers of people to action (for better or for worse.) if anything has been missing in my asheville experience to date, it has been a powerful, passionate discourse with my own work. don't get me wrong, i love my work. it speaks volumes to and about me. but where it fails is in speaking to the greater issues that move me. oppression of women and minorities (be they traditional minorities, or the the urban poor.) mechanization. job loss. war. nuclear proliferation. the manipulation of american culture and legislation by corporate factions. (okay. keep laughing. how much did that last tank of gas cost? how much high fructose corn syrup do you imbibe on a daily basis? why can more kids identify ronald mcdonald than george washington? why are wild fish not safe to eat? who is actually profiting from the wars in iraq and afghanistan?) in putting brief, powerful statements paired with striking/unexpected visuals on my pots, i risk being dismissed as the ceramic equivalent of a bumper sticker. could be. or, in juxtaposing phrases like "canary in a coalmine." with a raven sitting on a nuclear warhead, perhaps i am releasing into the viewer the visual equivalent of a brain worm. (that piece of song that gets stuck in your head.)it will squirm and rankle until the possessor exorcises it by learning more about the issue at hand. and perhaps acting.
and as for the violence inherent in, "this machine kills fascists," passionate speech is not peaceful. not in the sense in which i so long embraced peace and non-violence. my own ideals created in me a stagnancy and helplessness and bitter silence that cankered and chafed. so, now i speak. loudly. using words that i eschewed before as too harsh. but in the din of pop culture, i have to shout to hear myself. but yes, i will study the great peace makers, too, to relearn a vocabulary of peace that moves mountains.
lovepeace
heather

Monday, August 25, 2008

oncemoreintothebreachgoodfriends


(oooo, i hate that title glitch!)(harrumph.)
so today guthrie and i had our first culinary science class. he learned:
one quarter cup= 4 tablespoons,
one Tablespoon= 3 teaspoons,
how to grind flour,
why to grind flour,
how to combine water, yeast, and sweetener,
the origins of sorghum,
why yeast needs sugar,
how to knead dough by hand,
that kneading dough by hand is harder than it looks,
that a light bulb in the oven really makes it warm enough to rise dough,
how to punch down a risen ball of dough,
why to be gentle with dough when forming a loaf,
what egg white does for the top of a loaf,
why i spill water in the oven after putting in the bread,
how to divide a single drop into four parts,
how to curdle goat milk with microbial rennet and yoghurt culture,
and not to end a sentence with a preposition in front of his mother.
all valuable lessons that ended with two loaves of bread and half a gallon of milk on its way to chevre. and we'll do it all again next week! (or when the bread runs out.)
lovepeace
h

Sunday, August 24, 2008

...

and then the dogs ate them.
damn it.
h.

flourpower





after several years of considering it, i finally bought a grain mill attachment for my kitchenaid. it is on its maiden voyage, grinding 6 cups of hard red winter wheat for my favorite oatmeal bread. my hopes are high, but my expectations are low. remembering years of doorstop loaves as i learned to bake edible bread, i figure that there is a learning curve here, too.
and so there is... i have ordered a cookbook on whole grain artisan breads. but this bread rose well and tastes good and has a crumb much like that of my good old oatmeal bread. sadie can't stop eating it. that is a good sign.
excelsior!
lovepeace
heather
ps. and it really isn't as dumpy as it looks. i forgot that my loaf pans take a pound and a half loaf. i should have tripled the recipe. (oops.still yummy.)

Saturday, August 23, 2008

conversionexperience


yep. this is me. nose-deep in a sweet, succulent, o-so-fragrant little canteloupe from the city market.(i confess that i have forgotten which farm it came from.) the pony-tailed and bearded purveyor of deliciousness smelled their little belly-buttons and smiled knowingly. my years of hating melons would soon be over. as i walked home from the market with the basket on my head the prevailing breeze kept tickling my nose with the delicate perfume of sweet basil and baby melons. it brought to mind the almost pornographic enthusiasm for them shown by a peripheral character in the "toujour provence" books. living here makes me want to write food porn, too. of course, the moment sadie and i got home, we sliced up a juicy pale green orb. the flesh was... melon colored... and delectable. i even tried it with basil. ooooo.
next week: watermelon.

Friday, August 22, 2008

thankyouwoodyguthrie


THIS MACHINE KILLS FASCISTS.
though originally woody guthrie's, this idea comes from sadie, who wrote this on her computer. whereas i am not sure that i agree with that entirely, i like her idea about communication and information making good old-fashioned fascism impossible. my own idea, however, is that corporations are the new american fascists. in the abused names of security and convenience we have allowed ourselves to be vastly separated from our real sources such as food, family, and community. if we take back control over our food supplies and means of production, opting for local and handmade sources over imported goods and engineered foodstuffs, we draw closer to our families and communities. food is not junk. your coffee mug is not a nameless cog in the machine. where did that coffee come from, anyway? as these things become objects of thought, there is a shift in the mindset. we sit down for dinner. we meet our neighbors and our farmers. it becomes easier to make decisions that are good for all of us and not just based on fear, speed, or what will buy us that mercedes benz.
(note: i am not really advocating killing anyone. not even dick cheney. but with their means of control eradicated, they can adapt or die. ideologically, anyway.)

Monday, August 18, 2008

happybirthdaytome



[yes, it is a little late. my birthday is still the 7th day of the 7th month, but michael (having been in honduras for a month) gets a dispensation.] isn't it lovely! this is the beautiful cedar and mahogany box that michael made for me. it is even more exquisite in person, especially as it is full of fascinating things that he found on the shores of honduras. there is a nautilus carved on the front, and the inside is segmented in the proportions of the fibonacci sequence. most wonderfully of all, he made it with his very own hands, learning most of the skills as he progressed with the help of folk he works with on the farm. it is a labor of love, and i am so proud of it. and him.
lovelovelovepeace
h.

Friday, August 15, 2008

new


this is a slight alteration of an old pitcher form that i like. it gives her some attitude. and a butt. art imitates life.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

ahhh


this is one of the most beautiful teapots i have ever seen. i wish that i had made it... it is by the wonderful canadian potter cathi jefferson. sigh. such simple artistry and skill. this is your moment of zen.
lovepeace
h.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

myartiststatement

(if i use more than one word in the title, it turns into blocks. damn.)
(i had to write this for the book for the show tomorrow.)
I am vastly enamored of the wood-fired surface. The complex patterns of flashing and ash, the myriad surfaces smooth to stony, the obvious paths of flame across the face of the pot all combine to fascinate me at every kiln unloading. My work, which is entirely functional, evolves constantly to better suit my interest in the effects of fire. My glaze palate is spare, mostly liner glazes to preserve functionality. I use a variety of slips and a black underglaze to make simple designs. These designs are pulled from my surroundings and distilled into as few brushstrokes as possible. My goal in decoration is to find motifs that lend themselves to the organic nature of wood-firing. My overall desire in making pots is to create a body of work that is both functional and intriguing to the eye and hand.

reply

of course you have to weigh in on this one, gabey! all that philosophy has you primed for questions like this one. i have to disagree, though, on your concept of "art." there has to be some element of craftsmanship involved. andy warhol, who irritated many with his deification of household objects, still had the incredible skill to depict it. there must, in my mind, be some synthesis of intention and craftsmanship. art is not just whatever you feel. blue ducks in bow ties are not art. they are paper towels. (sorry, grandma.)and no, maybe the title "art" is not a prize, but it is something that you earn.
i do not think that the market actually dictates what is art. i think that it often misses art entirely. my point was merely that the market does get to dictate what the larger audience gets to see, therefore informing its idea of "art."
but now, as much as i would really really love to stay up and think about this some more, i have to go to bed. i have an opening at the Front Gallery tomorrow evening!

Friday, July 25, 2008

koons


jeff koons: art? or bullshit? i am nervous about making calls like this, but something in my artistic sensibility is offended by gigantic blue metallic hearts suspended by silver ribbons being proffered as art. by basketballs suspended in distilled water. by enormous pseudo-balloon poodles cast in colored steel. by toasters or deep fryers or vacuum cleaners suspended in front of fluorescent tubes and displayed by national art museums. i am greatly in favor of found object art. my recently departed friend john payne was a master at it. he created astounding moving sculptures with recovered metal. koons seems to merely think "SHINY!" and count it good. in the NPR article on him, the curator summed up his motif as "ta-da!" yes, i can see that. but does that make it art? is it enough to have a sense of whimsy and the money to cast it into stainless steel or assemble it into REALLY huge piles of shrubbery? the damnable thing is that the market will ultimately decide if koons is art or not. and the fact that his super-enormous Tiffany-christmas-ribbon-bauble sold for 2.3 million dollars seems to say that it is. i only hope that history takes pity on us, the culture that eviscerated robert maplethorpe (yes, but have you seen his OTHER photos?)and deified the shiny orange poodle. ouch.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

loco for locavores


yes, i am still on the local food bandwagon. it is hard not to be when you can get up at 7 and pick things like these out of your own garden. well... i use garden in the very loosest of terms. blackberries and raspberries grow wild all over my yard. the blueberry bush is a single specimen which bears like crazy all by its little lonesome just outside the kitchen window. the mint is a volunteer underneath the overflow of the clogged gutter. i hope it doesn't die when i clean them out. my other gardening endeavors have yet to manifest. well, i did buy a lovely fig tree, which michael planted for me. but that is the extent of my actual planting about the place. i had the distinct disadvantage of having moved in on june first, after all of the planting and early work should have been long done. i suppose that if i had dropped everything, built raised beds, and bought sets of baby plants, i might be reaping a first harvest about now. alas. i did not. there is always this winter and next spring. but i do have the comfort of bi-weekly tailgate markets and a wonderful CSA. annie even lets me trade out the summer squash and zucchini. (daddy, you would love her.)
and here is where audience participation comes in... i need a good cobbler recipe. preferably the one grandma used. my grandma, your grandma... someone's grandma! if i get one i really love (you bet i will vet them until my berries run out!) i will publish it here. i will ask my culinary secret weapons, jane and karen, and let you know what they come up with, too.
thank you! and i look forward to hearing from you.
lovepeace
heather

Thursday, July 10, 2008

locavore

this is my new favorite word. having been a slow foodie for almost two years now, it has taken a couple of well placed books to completely swing me over. i recently read michael pollan's "omnivore's dilemma" and am now reading barbara kingsolver's "animal, vegetable, miracle." (i say read... but i actually am ingesting them unabridged through my auditory canals. more about the wonders of audiobooks later.) for those of you unacquainted with the term, "locavore" means one who eats locally. no, not at the mcdonald's up the street. locavores eat food that was grown, spawned, birthed, hatched, milked, laid, or otherwise produced within a hundred miles of where they live. the food is usually not certified organic, but most of it is grown with more attention to the original intentions of the organic movement than its vacuum sealed, styrofoam-bedded, cellophane-wrapped grocery store counterparts. i am a little wary of the old fella who grows obscenely mammoth winter squash and bushels of greasy beans, but only because i remember grandpa and granddaddy's fondness for sevin dust. the advantages are myriad, but i will stick to the big three. one: because it comes from farms within an half an hour radius of asheville and is mostly grown without the dubious benefit of petrochemicals, it involves far, far less petrol than the same sort of thing shipped from california. or peru. the benefit in that is irrefutable. regardless of how you feel about al gore. two: variety! o my goodness! leafy greens like kale, collards, chard, russian kale, lacinato kale, every imaginable lettuce except iceberg, callaloo, bok choy, pak choy, and stuff i've never even heard of! tomatoes in every shade except maybe blue. carrots in purple, red, orange and near white. strawberries and blueberries. a plethora of eggplants and the dreaded summer squash. herbs to savor up any dish. because these farmers are real people and not agribusinesses, they have the ability to plant heirloom varietals that may be too delicate to make it a thousand miles to your table. or too regional to sell in peoria. like the hillbilly tomato. a sunset in every bite, the plant tag suggests that it be served in a sammy with wonderbread and duke's mayonnaise in front of the television set along with a cold PBR and a serious dose of nascar. that's a lot for one little plant tag. they also turn to pulp if handled too much, and they hate cold. so nix that one from the refrigerator truck. many farmers here are proud to be growing varieties that have been local for many years. like greasy beans and cherokee purple tomatoes. they exchange seeds and seedlings, much to the disgruntlement of monsanto and other botanical kidnappers. no one owns the genes of these little heroes of the plant world. with so much of the arable land of this planet dedicated to only a very few, very specifically bred varieties of corn and soy, the food supply that the majority of the world depends on is in incredible peril from microbial attack. did these folk learn nothing from the irish potato famine? besides, and this brings me to number three, it just tastes better and is better for you. locally grown produce is fresh from the field. the kale we ate last night was pulled yesterday morning. as were the carrots, beets, shallots, and potatoes. they taste like vegetables, not cardboard. the flavors and textures are bright and crisp. they have a flavor unique to those grown in these soils, with this particular water source, a terroir if you will. and foods eaten so soon after harvesting still retain all of the nutrients that leach out on a long trip across the world. vitamins, minerals, antioxidants, micro-nutrients, TASTE.
we will see how i feel about local food in midwinter, when all i can find are eggs, goat milk, potatoes, onions, sweet potatoes, and (if the crop is good) lots and lots of apples. i think that my next purchase will be a gigantic freezer for my basement, so that i can preserve the bounty of summer until it arrives again next year.


post script: i am still not eating the spawned, birthed or hatched. i am still a vegetarian, too. but with excellent sources of truly free-range eggs and goat milk (been to the farm!), i feel better about some consumption of animal products. i am even learning how to make cheese. look out for the cooler when i visit, my dear family. goat mozzarella is my next frontier. and no, traveling 697 miles WITH food is not so much an ethical dilemma.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

perspective shifts

(yes, i know... long time no blog. blame it on the dog.)
i don't think that i have ever before been irritated with myself for broadening my perspectives. today, though, when i went looking for fodder for a sneer, i failed to find it. no, i don't usually go looking for things to dislike, but i was in a non-specifically cranky self-critical mood and really wanted to focus my distaste on something other than my own shortcomings. so, having heard a scathing review of frank gehry's architecture (including the bilbao guggenheim museum and the strata building at MIT), i decided to look them up and have a good derisive chuckle at the crap that people will buy for millions of dollars. i should have looked up imelda marcos' shoe collection instead. i found myself actually admiring the sinuous curves and protruding windows of the structures. i enjoyed the radical non-functionality of them both. they WERE whimsical and even daring. they made no effort to fit in with their surroundings. from what i understand from the review, they leak terribly... and the upper floors of one of them makes the people who work in it nauseated by dint of the slant of wall and hallways. it was even suggested that he did the latter on PURPOSE! all of this is a recipe for work that i would have completely despised a year ago. what happened to me? why am i appreciating forms that i have never liked? it is artists... damn it. i know too many of them. i have been forced to cultivate a habit of standing back from new work (of my own and others) and giving it a little space before i judge it. otherwise, i would on a regular basis be in the uncomfortable space of disliking work made or cherished by those near and dear to me. suddenly, i find harmony in all sorts of odd (for me) places. pleasing angles in i.m. pei. joy in the undulations of antonio gaudi. utter peace in rothco's blending blocks of color. hmm. and so it leaves me without a object of scorn in my hour of need. sigh. i guess that there is always pop music, but that seems like a cheap shot. and who knows, i might end up liking it! aigh!
glad to be back...
heather